Preventing History from repeating itself

So after a talk with my mother. I've come to discover the truth about my father's love life and his attitude. I found out that he's pretty anti-social and that he's only good at one on one conversations. To this day my dad hasn't give an actual number of how many girls he's dated. And we both believe its because he never really dated. That my mom was the first one and he held on to that. Thanks to my father's DNA, I've come to see that some of his attitude is shaving off on me. And I'm saying fuck that. Even though this year I've haven't really gone out as much to save money. One of my biggest fears is to end up like my Dad, all anti-social and never really dated. Because I heard this response many times before for people who have never been in relationships,

Q. "So how many girlfriends/boyfriends you had"

A. "I never really been in a relationship but I dated a lot"

I find that answer to be utter bullshit. So to prevent history from repeating itself, I've been acting social, I've been trying to get out in the scene. I'm the type of person that thrives off interaction. I can't just chill and watch tv all the time. That sucks. And when I do stay home, there are times where I'm kicking myself saying "I should've went out." And at least I'm making the effort to going out and doing stuff, I don't get how people can just stay home. Social interaction is great. Here's how I see it

You don't socialize, you don't meet new people, you don't meet new friends, and you don't meet connections.

Whether its a love connection or a connection to a job. Its important to be out there.

Now I know there is one fear out there that really gets in the way of social interactions.

The fear of rejection

As any socialable person will say, GET OVER IT.

I have to admit there's a piece of me that still has that fear.

But I won't let it defeat me.

As Pharoah Monch said in the Styles P song: "My life is all I have, my rhymes my pen my pad, and I've done made it through the struggle don't judge me, what you say now won't budge me, because where I come from, so often, people you grew up with are laying in a coffin, but I've done made it through the strife, its my time now, MY WORLD, MY LIFE, MY LIFE!"