Saturday
So to begin, Daft Punk played their final US tour date for 2007 in las vegas on this day. The only excuse I can think of missing this opportunity is saving up for my japan trip. Granted I can still catch one of their other shows, but they are all out of the country. And the thing that killed me the most about this, is that I didn't catch wind of their tour and set-up till about a day before thier last US date. So I felt like I was two minutes too late. And I'm a big fan of listening to techno live. Especially if its a good band like daft punk. I just want to say dammit. Plain and simple. Here is an example of what I missed.
So instead of being in vegas checking out the show of a lifetime. I ended up being with my other music interest... Hip Hop. More specifically Underground and Funk. Me and my homie rolled up to long beach to visit his girl. And we ended up at some lounge called Jimmy's which had free hip hop and funk playing all night. Now when I say funk, I mean shit that you can bboy to. Also, it was good underground or rare groove hip hop. Not the mainstream BS that you hear nowadays. I mean you can get a hit record for saying "Superman that Hoe", come on now. So at this small place in Santa Monica, it was tight to see bboys doing their thing. And it was also good to see fellow hip hop enthusiasts. I was talking to this one cat who was talking to me about how lyrics nowadays are like nursery rhymes. What ever happened to the lyrics that made you put some thought into it. Which I totally agree. So Saturday was getting more into my hip hop side.
Sunday
The original plan was to visit our homegirl from ill-literacy and see her perform. What me and my homie didn't know was that she was performing at a filipino festival. Now that got me all excited. It's been awhile since I've been to one of these functions. Now the Mabuhay festival was held by Troy Phi at USC. The festival had a variety of filipino based companies. I picked up a shirt from pnoy apparel. Mass props to these cats because these cats are from San Diego.
I feel good visiting these functions because its good to see filipinos reaching out to each other trying to show them their culture, their history and their pride. There was a variety of performances from Jazz, spoken word, dancing and even the Basco Bros performed. The filiipino who tried out for the Pussycat Dolls was also there. Here's a vid of a performer named Gabe Bondoc. I apologize, this is not my video and the quality might be bad.
Being on USC's campus made me miss the feeling of campus life. Hanging out, studying, working only because you need the money and you know your going to quit it soon. For some reason, just chilling on that campus made me consider graduate school. Another thing being on campus made me realize is that I really need a digital camera. There were so many opportunities for artistic pictures but unfortunately couldn't catch because I didn't have a camera. So I might cop one soon.
So as the weekend ends another Monday comes. *sigh* Like Common says "One day It'll all make sense"
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Halloween weekend Part I
So its been awhile. Haven't entered anything new since the fires. But I'm happy to say that the fires are finally put out. But this whole week has been crazy. There's a lot of stuff I want to talk about and I'm going to list it off now before I forget.
Action speak louder than blogs
Ill Literacy humbled me
Techno, modern day symphonies
...I swear there was more. But I'll come back to it I guess.
But this weekend has been pretty eventful. So eventful that it made me realize that I need a digital camera, because there were a lot of pictures that had artistic potential. But on with the weekend.
Halloween Costume/Going Away/Welcome new roommates party
So Friday arrived and the fires was pretty much relinquished. And we had many reason to celebrate. We officially have 2 new roommates and one of our old roommates was leaving. So of course you had to go in style. Now that we know we have some cool neighbors, we had a party at our house. We had a variety of drinks from sangria to a keg. Now let me just say that the party was a mixture of brown and white people partying. And white people are crazy party people. Aside from the variety of costumes we had at the party, there was also the numerous jokes and events. I'll give you the main highlight, our new roommates thought it would be cool to shoot each other with a bb gun. After one pump, a shot with a bb gun leaves a red mark. Now 3 pumps pierces the skin. These guys went up to four pumps which basically went into the skin and looked like a pimple. Our new roommates are crazy, lets leave it at that. Aside from that, the night was really fun. It was good to see my homies dressed up and having a good time and thats really my aim. I always think about others before I think about myself. And the best thing about this party, it didn't end till 4 in the morning. Of course the aftermath was pretty nasty.
Action speak louder than blogs
Ill Literacy humbled me
Techno, modern day symphonies
...I swear there was more. But I'll come back to it I guess.
But this weekend has been pretty eventful. So eventful that it made me realize that I need a digital camera, because there were a lot of pictures that had artistic potential. But on with the weekend.
Halloween Costume/Going Away/Welcome new roommates party
So Friday arrived and the fires was pretty much relinquished. And we had many reason to celebrate. We officially have 2 new roommates and one of our old roommates was leaving. So of course you had to go in style. Now that we know we have some cool neighbors, we had a party at our house. We had a variety of drinks from sangria to a keg. Now let me just say that the party was a mixture of brown and white people partying. And white people are crazy party people. Aside from the variety of costumes we had at the party, there was also the numerous jokes and events. I'll give you the main highlight, our new roommates thought it would be cool to shoot each other with a bb gun. After one pump, a shot with a bb gun leaves a red mark. Now 3 pumps pierces the skin. These guys went up to four pumps which basically went into the skin and looked like a pimple. Our new roommates are crazy, lets leave it at that. Aside from that, the night was really fun. It was good to see my homies dressed up and having a good time and thats really my aim. I always think about others before I think about myself. And the best thing about this party, it didn't end till 4 in the morning. Of course the aftermath was pretty nasty.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
While the San Diego Fires are going on
So after entering in a update on this site. Everything begins to turn haywire. My roommate goes to the grocery store to find no groceries left. Bottom feeders are trying to sell masks at $2.00 a piece when its only 10 cents to make. And everybody in my neighborhood supposedly had to evacuate.
To start off, the power goes out in our neighborhood. So my roommates and I get concerned and start packing the most important stuff. I packed the items I mentioned in the previous posts. I double checked to make sure that my friends and family were ok. And really we just waited until we got the signal to leave. On the news, I couldn't believe they did this. But one of the reporters were reporting in front of his own house burning down. That guy had a lot of willpower to report his own property being destroyed. If it was me, I wouldn't be able to take it and break down in front of the camera.
It was around 8:00 PM where one of neighbors came up to us and told us that they got the reverse 911 call telling them to leave. If you could only imagine a whole neighborhood all at once packing their stuff up, everybody's garage is open and files and clothes are being stuffed in the trunks of the cars. Now as me and the roommates went our seperate ways. One of our neighbors said that the news just announced that they made a mistake and we didn't have to evacuate. Still the fires were around the Rancho Bernardo, 4S Ranch, Poway area which is rediculously close to Mira Mesa. I didn't know what the night was going to bring.
Regardless of the information I received, I headed down to national city to my homies pad. The freeways were surprisingly open and there wasn't any traffic going South. Now when I got there, both of us thought our area was from a distance. We hung out and tried to fall asleep around 2:00 PM. Around 4:00 PM, the neighbors start to stir up a commotion and my homie's parents are in a panic. The neighbors are saying a fire just started about 5 miles away from us. I couldn't fall asleep with all this stuff going on. The outside air became more smokey and I realized I had to evacuate the safe area I was just at. Thankfully my homie in Mission Valley said that the doors are open. So I can roll there the minute we get the signal.
Stayed up till around 6 in the morning. My homie said that he'll wake me up if we get the signal to leave. So I crashed. Basically waking up everytime I hear the phone going off, wondering if its the call to get out of there. So my naps were in one hour periods. Come noontime, I finally woke up, caught up on sleep. No signal has been made. And I'm still in national city. My truck is covered in ash, the sky is grey.
My prayers go out to everybody who lost their homes and to the ones that lost their lives.
To start off, the power goes out in our neighborhood. So my roommates and I get concerned and start packing the most important stuff. I packed the items I mentioned in the previous posts. I double checked to make sure that my friends and family were ok. And really we just waited until we got the signal to leave. On the news, I couldn't believe they did this. But one of the reporters were reporting in front of his own house burning down. That guy had a lot of willpower to report his own property being destroyed. If it was me, I wouldn't be able to take it and break down in front of the camera.
It was around 8:00 PM where one of neighbors came up to us and told us that they got the reverse 911 call telling them to leave. If you could only imagine a whole neighborhood all at once packing their stuff up, everybody's garage is open and files and clothes are being stuffed in the trunks of the cars. Now as me and the roommates went our seperate ways. One of our neighbors said that the news just announced that they made a mistake and we didn't have to evacuate. Still the fires were around the Rancho Bernardo, 4S Ranch, Poway area which is rediculously close to Mira Mesa. I didn't know what the night was going to bring.
Regardless of the information I received, I headed down to national city to my homies pad. The freeways were surprisingly open and there wasn't any traffic going South. Now when I got there, both of us thought our area was from a distance. We hung out and tried to fall asleep around 2:00 PM. Around 4:00 PM, the neighbors start to stir up a commotion and my homie's parents are in a panic. The neighbors are saying a fire just started about 5 miles away from us. I couldn't fall asleep with all this stuff going on. The outside air became more smokey and I realized I had to evacuate the safe area I was just at. Thankfully my homie in Mission Valley said that the doors are open. So I can roll there the minute we get the signal.
Stayed up till around 6 in the morning. My homie said that he'll wake me up if we get the signal to leave. So I crashed. Basically waking up everytime I hear the phone going off, wondering if its the call to get out of there. So my naps were in one hour periods. Come noontime, I finally woke up, caught up on sleep. No signal has been made. And I'm still in national city. My truck is covered in ash, the sky is grey.
My prayers go out to everybody who lost their homes and to the ones that lost their lives.
Monday, October 22, 2007
The skies are ashy and grey
So today there are two major fires going on in San Diego county. One up north in the Ramona area and one down south close by the Border. With those two fires going on, people had to be evacuated and the last time I saw there was one confirmed death. Thanks to this dry weather we've been having lately, a brush fire was bound to happen.
Now thanks to that fire, it gives the area that I'm living in an eerie feeling. The skies are grey and ashes are everywhere. It leaves the area in a bright red haze. And of course you have that burnt smell everywhere. The santa ana winds are not helping either because that's just helping the stuff spread. To be honest, this really looks like one of those scenes from a zombie film. Where the city looks deserted and dust and debris fly everywhere. And the craziest stuff I saw today was when running errands. I straight saw some kids wearing bandanas and surgical masks around their faces to help them breath. Is this what our future going to look like? Is our air going to be so fucked up that we have to wear masks to help us breath.
Are these documentaries and facts about our earth changing not affecting us at all? What I truly believe right now is that people are aware that our atmosphere is changing, but their just in denial. Like our bodies, we only have one earth. We have to take care of the earth like our bodies or else were screwed. In the future, I imagine their should be a world wide effort to help our planet out. For example I wonder what would happen if nobody drove their cars for 3 days. It would be hard to enforce, but imagine the positive effects it will have.
If you can only imagine right now, my truck is covered in ash, my house smells like smoke and people are losing their homes and memories. This all happened on this day Sunday.
*Update
So overnight the fire has spread over San Diego County. In fact there were fires close by my parents, my grandparents and myself. While leaving for work the sun was blocked by all the smoke and ash making the sky orange. Next time I'll take a picture of it. While at work, worrying about the people I care about. I was thinking, if the time came, what would I pack and take with me. It would be the following:
Clothes
My computer
My pictures
Everything else I could live w/o until I get back on my feet. I'm thankful that the fire hasn't affected any of my family and friends.
Many Businesses and Schools have been cancelled. And I got off early from my job. To everybody out there in San Diego. My prayers are with you.
Now thanks to that fire, it gives the area that I'm living in an eerie feeling. The skies are grey and ashes are everywhere. It leaves the area in a bright red haze. And of course you have that burnt smell everywhere. The santa ana winds are not helping either because that's just helping the stuff spread. To be honest, this really looks like one of those scenes from a zombie film. Where the city looks deserted and dust and debris fly everywhere. And the craziest stuff I saw today was when running errands. I straight saw some kids wearing bandanas and surgical masks around their faces to help them breath. Is this what our future going to look like? Is our air going to be so fucked up that we have to wear masks to help us breath.
Are these documentaries and facts about our earth changing not affecting us at all? What I truly believe right now is that people are aware that our atmosphere is changing, but their just in denial. Like our bodies, we only have one earth. We have to take care of the earth like our bodies or else were screwed. In the future, I imagine their should be a world wide effort to help our planet out. For example I wonder what would happen if nobody drove their cars for 3 days. It would be hard to enforce, but imagine the positive effects it will have.
If you can only imagine right now, my truck is covered in ash, my house smells like smoke and people are losing their homes and memories. This all happened on this day Sunday.
*Update
So overnight the fire has spread over San Diego County. In fact there were fires close by my parents, my grandparents and myself. While leaving for work the sun was blocked by all the smoke and ash making the sky orange. Next time I'll take a picture of it. While at work, worrying about the people I care about. I was thinking, if the time came, what would I pack and take with me. It would be the following:
Clothes
My computer
My pictures
Everything else I could live w/o until I get back on my feet. I'm thankful that the fire hasn't affected any of my family and friends.
Many Businesses and Schools have been cancelled. And I got off early from my job. To everybody out there in San Diego. My prayers are with you.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
The "play anything in a club" playlist
So there are some places you go to that doesn't play good music. But the same music, the same music you hear just to keep people excited. The music that was in 3 months ago. Nothing of a variety or to affect the mood. Its more like play it, here the crowd go woooooo once and play a whole bunch of the same stuff. There's certain bars in PB that only appeal to the drunken stuper demographic. Here is their playlist.
2pac- California Love
Journey- Don't stop believing
Darude- Sand Storm
Shop Boyz- Party like a rock star
Britney Spears- Gimme Some
Britney Spears- Toxic
Lynyrd Skynard- Sweet Home alabama
Soulja Boy- Crank That
Ciara- Goodies
Black Eyed Peas- My humps
Gwen Stefani- Holla back girl
Beyonce- Crazy in love
Diddy- Last night
Hurricane Chris- Hey Bay Bay
Rihanna-Umbrella
A-Ha- Take on me
Beach Boys- California Dreamin (Club Version)
50 cent- in da club
Guns N Roses- Sweet Child O Mine Intro
Bel Biv Devoe- Poison
Paperboy- Diddy
Usher- Yeah
Lil Jon- Get Low
Pussycat Dolls- Don't Cha
Pussycat Dolls- Buttons
Yung Joc- It's Going Down
E-40- Tell me when to go
Jay-Z- Give it to me
Black Eyed Peas- Let's get it started
Chris Brown- Run it
Bubba Sparxxx- Ms. New Booty
Justin Timberlake- Sexy Back
Justin Timberlake- Dance With me
Damian Marley- Welcome to Jamrock
Cassie- Me and U
Will-I-Am - I got it from my momma
DJ UNK- Walk it out
Kanye West- Golddigger
Kanye West- Stronger
Justin Timberlake- Lovestoned
Nelly fertado- Permiscious
Sean Kingston- Beautiful Girls
Maroon 5- Makes me wonder
Mims- This is why I'm hot
Amy Winehouse- Rehab
T-Pain- Buy you a drank
Rihanna- Pon da replay
Gnarls Barkley- Crazy
Chingy- Right thurr
Christina Aguilara- Dirty
Dr. Dre- The next episode
Outkast- Hey ya
Daft Punk- One more time
Mariah Carrey- It's like that
R.Kelly f/ Jay-Z - Fiesta Remix
Mary J Blige- Dance for me
112- Dance with me
Snoop Dogg- Drop it like its hot
Jennifer Lopez- Get Right
Missy Elliot- One minute Man
Kevin Little- Turn me on
Snoop Dogg- It ain't no fun
Kelis- Bossy
Amerie- One Thing
Petey Pablo- Freek-A-Leek
Ying Yang Twinz- Salk Shaker
Sean Paul- Get Busy
Sean Paul- Temperature
Eminem- Shake That
Gwen Stefani- Rich Girl
Jamie Foxx- Unpredictable
Michael Jackson- Rock with you
Montell Jordan- This is how we do it
Notorious B.I.G.- Hypnotize
Paula DeAnda- doing too much
UB40- Red Red Wine
J-Kwon- Tipsy
Kelis- Milkshake
Daddy Yankee- La Gasolina
2pac- California Love
Journey- Don't stop believing
Darude- Sand Storm
Shop Boyz- Party like a rock star
Britney Spears- Gimme Some
Britney Spears- Toxic
Lynyrd Skynard- Sweet Home alabama
Soulja Boy- Crank That
Ciara- Goodies
Black Eyed Peas- My humps
Gwen Stefani- Holla back girl
Beyonce- Crazy in love
Diddy- Last night
Hurricane Chris- Hey Bay Bay
Rihanna-Umbrella
A-Ha- Take on me
Beach Boys- California Dreamin (Club Version)
50 cent- in da club
Guns N Roses- Sweet Child O Mine Intro
Bel Biv Devoe- Poison
Paperboy- Diddy
Usher- Yeah
Lil Jon- Get Low
Pussycat Dolls- Don't Cha
Pussycat Dolls- Buttons
Yung Joc- It's Going Down
E-40- Tell me when to go
Jay-Z- Give it to me
Black Eyed Peas- Let's get it started
Chris Brown- Run it
Bubba Sparxxx- Ms. New Booty
Justin Timberlake- Sexy Back
Justin Timberlake- Dance With me
Damian Marley- Welcome to Jamrock
Cassie- Me and U
Will-I-Am - I got it from my momma
DJ UNK- Walk it out
Kanye West- Golddigger
Kanye West- Stronger
Justin Timberlake- Lovestoned
Nelly fertado- Permiscious
Sean Kingston- Beautiful Girls
Maroon 5- Makes me wonder
Mims- This is why I'm hot
Amy Winehouse- Rehab
T-Pain- Buy you a drank
Rihanna- Pon da replay
Gnarls Barkley- Crazy
Chingy- Right thurr
Christina Aguilara- Dirty
Dr. Dre- The next episode
Outkast- Hey ya
Daft Punk- One more time
Mariah Carrey- It's like that
R.Kelly f/ Jay-Z - Fiesta Remix
Mary J Blige- Dance for me
112- Dance with me
Snoop Dogg- Drop it like its hot
Jennifer Lopez- Get Right
Missy Elliot- One minute Man
Kevin Little- Turn me on
Snoop Dogg- It ain't no fun
Kelis- Bossy
Amerie- One Thing
Petey Pablo- Freek-A-Leek
Ying Yang Twinz- Salk Shaker
Sean Paul- Get Busy
Sean Paul- Temperature
Eminem- Shake That
Gwen Stefani- Rich Girl
Jamie Foxx- Unpredictable
Michael Jackson- Rock with you
Montell Jordan- This is how we do it
Notorious B.I.G.- Hypnotize
Paula DeAnda- doing too much
UB40- Red Red Wine
J-Kwon- Tipsy
Kelis- Milkshake
Daddy Yankee- La Gasolina
Piece: A song from Paris
In 2005, I traveled around Europe for a month. If I would have to sum up my trip, I would have to say the trip was bittersweet. I experienced every emotion you can think of on that trip. I had my share of ups, and a grip of downs. Mainly I saw myself for what I really was.
Towards the end of the trip, I wrote a couple pieces. Just letting out what I had in my head. Here's one of them. This piece actually should have the instrumental to Jay-Z's Dear Summer in the background. Because I wrote this piece while listening to this song on repeat. If you haven't heard the song. I attached a clip to help you out. Hope you enjoy
A Song From Paris
Chillen in front the Moulin Rouge
Past 30 days got me confused
Can't refuse the taste of beer and wine
The drunkeness fades in time
But wait, rewind, let's back track what you did
You should be amazed at the life you lived.
No matter what country, I'm at a park bench
Making these flows, trying to make sense
Going to different cities, walking aimlessly
Thank God I got my family
The buck might have stopped here
and that's truly the one thing I fear
But everything is crystal clear
When in Rome I did the same in amsterdam
Hope my travelin partner will come to understand
Everybody got differnt levels of fun.
Its good to have some, but I felt like I got none
I hope one day the tables will turn
And I get someone and you get burned
4 Horses will ride someday
But today will not be that day
Because today was a journey what I had to do solo
I didn't want you guys to say "Oh NO!"
To be honest with you, I thought of slitting my wrists.
I have to thank God for getting me through this
For providing me with a shining light.
I'm gonna hug her the minute I get off the flight
Tell her Thank you for being a friend
You were the one thing I looked forward to in the end.
It's hard to tell if I'm homesick of I miss my homies
Dayam Europe loves to play Akon's song Lonely
A portion of the world I felt I conquered
The opportunity I had, I'm honored
All the memories I'll forever cherish
I want the scrapbook with me when I perish
People outside will never understand.
The Eurotrip of me, W****** and A**
Towards the end of the trip, I wrote a couple pieces. Just letting out what I had in my head. Here's one of them. This piece actually should have the instrumental to Jay-Z's Dear Summer in the background. Because I wrote this piece while listening to this song on repeat. If you haven't heard the song. I attached a clip to help you out. Hope you enjoy
A Song From Paris
Chillen in front the Moulin Rouge
Past 30 days got me confused
Can't refuse the taste of beer and wine
The drunkeness fades in time
But wait, rewind, let's back track what you did
You should be amazed at the life you lived.
No matter what country, I'm at a park bench
Making these flows, trying to make sense
Going to different cities, walking aimlessly
Thank God I got my family
The buck might have stopped here
and that's truly the one thing I fear
But everything is crystal clear
When in Rome I did the same in amsterdam
Hope my travelin partner will come to understand
Everybody got differnt levels of fun.
Its good to have some, but I felt like I got none
I hope one day the tables will turn
And I get someone and you get burned
4 Horses will ride someday
But today will not be that day
Because today was a journey what I had to do solo
I didn't want you guys to say "Oh NO!"
To be honest with you, I thought of slitting my wrists.
I have to thank God for getting me through this
For providing me with a shining light.
I'm gonna hug her the minute I get off the flight
Tell her Thank you for being a friend
You were the one thing I looked forward to in the end.
It's hard to tell if I'm homesick of I miss my homies
Dayam Europe loves to play Akon's song Lonely
A portion of the world I felt I conquered
The opportunity I had, I'm honored
All the memories I'll forever cherish
I want the scrapbook with me when I perish
People outside will never understand.
The Eurotrip of me, W****** and A**
“Sen No Yoru wo Koete” by Aqua timez
So I was listening to this song a couple days ago. And the song itself w/o the translation I thought was pretty good. But as I investigated on what the words mean. I found out that his is a really moving song. It actually made me want to learn the Japanese language all over again. To make sure I don't miss a good song like this again. Talking about trying to get over 1000 nights to say I love you. I never knew this song had such strong words. I hope you enjoy.
I would like to thank Asep Koswara for the lyrics.
“Sen No Yoru wo Koete” by Aqua timez
(english Translation)
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone
I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone
On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded
I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world
I would like to thank Asep Koswara for the lyrics.
“Sen No Yoru wo Koete” by Aqua timez
(english Translation)
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone
I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone
On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded
I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world
Monday, October 15, 2007
Fascination with Fireworks... or lack of
When I was a kid, fireworks were cool. Of course a lot of things were cool back in the day. Seeing the night sky illuminate with different colors. Back in the day, fireworks was all about the colors and how fast each one blew up. Fireworks now have different shapes and colors. Some fireworks can blow up to two different colors, now they end up in shapes like happy faces or planets.
When your young, its acceptable to watch fireworks with your family and it ain't no thing. But when you reach around the 14-30 age, watching fireworks becomes more as a couple event, or with a group of friends. As I got older, the appeal of fireworks wasn't that exciting anymore.
It could be because I haven't watched fireworks as boyfriend and girlfriend before. It also doesn't help that I had a group of friends that thought fireworks were stupid. Coincidentally I don't hang out with them anymore. But like I said, as I got older, I saw nothing but couples watching fireworks. So when it comes to those types of things, I sort of feel defeated. And fireworks became more like "eh." Another factor could be seeing the same thing everytime, 4 times a year. I mean it got boring after awhile. It wasn't until now that the new colors and shapes are bringing the excitement back to fireworks.
I'm not sure how all my homies see fireworks nowadays. But I'm sure they would say "their only fun if you light them yourself."
Maybe my point of view will change when I finally see a fireworks display while not feeling defeated. But for now, it ain't a big thing.
When your young, its acceptable to watch fireworks with your family and it ain't no thing. But when you reach around the 14-30 age, watching fireworks becomes more as a couple event, or with a group of friends. As I got older, the appeal of fireworks wasn't that exciting anymore.
It could be because I haven't watched fireworks as boyfriend and girlfriend before. It also doesn't help that I had a group of friends that thought fireworks were stupid. Coincidentally I don't hang out with them anymore. But like I said, as I got older, I saw nothing but couples watching fireworks. So when it comes to those types of things, I sort of feel defeated. And fireworks became more like "eh." Another factor could be seeing the same thing everytime, 4 times a year. I mean it got boring after awhile. It wasn't until now that the new colors and shapes are bringing the excitement back to fireworks.
I'm not sure how all my homies see fireworks nowadays. But I'm sure they would say "their only fun if you light them yourself."
Maybe my point of view will change when I finally see a fireworks display while not feeling defeated. But for now, it ain't a big thing.
Random Thoughts
The weekend I had was pretty relaxing, but theres a lot of stuff going on through my mind. Its really going to take a lot of time to explain so I'm just going to list off what I've been thinking about.
I'm crossing my fingers that I get a job by December
Is applying to all these jobs even worth it?
Is there something that I'm doing wrong where they don't look at my resume?
I don't want to give up going to Japan in May 2008
This weekend was pretty chill. Chilled with folks and just relaxed
Motivation, I need to find it again
I have to get my guitar back so I can start learning
Piano lessons, I'm going to start getting them once I get my job ish settled
Six pack, Six pack, Six pack
Love leaves when Hunger settles in
Was the way I was raised affected where I'm at now?
I should take salsa lessons again
5K's are cake walks, I should be training for marathons now
Holidays are coming, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas
I want to make a difference somewhere
Settling for mediocre is bullshit
Don't be concerned what other people think
Still waiting for that moment when I can generally smile.
I'm crossing my fingers that I get a job by December
Is applying to all these jobs even worth it?
Is there something that I'm doing wrong where they don't look at my resume?
I don't want to give up going to Japan in May 2008
This weekend was pretty chill. Chilled with folks and just relaxed
Motivation, I need to find it again
I have to get my guitar back so I can start learning
Piano lessons, I'm going to start getting them once I get my job ish settled
Six pack, Six pack, Six pack
Love leaves when Hunger settles in
Was the way I was raised affected where I'm at now?
I should take salsa lessons again
5K's are cake walks, I should be training for marathons now
Holidays are coming, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas
I want to make a difference somewhere
Settling for mediocre is bullshit
Don't be concerned what other people think
Still waiting for that moment when I can generally smile.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Happy Place
Everybody has something that'll bring them to a happy place. Whether its a picture or listening to a song. There's something that'll make you smile.
Watching this video always make me smile.
Watching this video always make me smile.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
The return of Spoken Word night
So tonight I attended my first spoken word night in 3 years. And I have to say it was a good feeling getting back into the groove and performing a piece. Just to know that the audience is feeling your pieces just brings me back to why I started writing again. Being the perfectionist I am, I wished I could put more emotion into the pieces I performed. I mean yeah I gave emphasis, but I really felt like it could've been better. But like my friend said, its not a competition. Just feel good that you got back on the mic. Which I totally agree. But I'd have to thank him for getting my creative juices flowing.
Now when I write a piece, I put all my emotions into it. I only write when I have the inspiration to, I don't force it and I don't make a piece half ass. If I'm not putting 100% into it, then I can't call it a piece.
Here is the piece I performed today that I wrote for the occasion
This piece is about the goals I have in life and how trying to find a job I like sucks. Hope you like it
What Changed?
Gee, I can't wait to graduate and get a job!
Is what I said back in the day
Blinded by my ignorant college ways
Big dreams about cash I never saw the truth
Cause it's a lot of BS that I've been through
Now its true you give up lectures and tests
But you ive up funn stuff without time to rest
Let me profess the truth of after the diploma
Give you some insight of this real world coma
You give up going to classroom 925
To get a nine to five
Did I mention the possibility of overtime?
Your 3 months vacation shrink down to 10 days
Well... make it 15 if you include holidays
Instead of worrying about class the next day
Your concerned about stocks in your 401K
Projects, midterms and finals
becomes meetings, reports and reviews
Now is it a job your really want to pursue?
If I knew it was going to be elike this I would've got seven degrees
Broaden my mind instead of using Office XP
Plant some seeds and build my foundation
Have a idea and embark on its creation
Because when you die, how are you going to be remembered
Are you going to be known for being in a cubicle forever?
Fuck that, that's not going to be me
Because theirs a whiole of goals I want to achieve
Now some of this stuff might be hard to believe
But I will finish them before my hair recedes
I want to climb Mt. Fuji and see the Japanese sunrise
Watch the cherry blossoms bloom and fall with my own eyes
Learn how to play the guitar besides the song more than words
Run with the bulls and learn anchient proverbs
Learn the piano and participate in a symphony
Be arranged next to the trumbone and timpani
I want to visit the Filipino motherland
Be in a movie or commercial holding a fanta can
I picture myself acting like a unsung hero
Being in time square reenacting the My Boo Video
Dance to the center while singing the song
Have someone like Alicia Keys moving along
Whatever you may think just set yourself some goals
Something you want to do with your mind body and soul
Mass props to the people who enjoy their work.
That's like 10% of people on this earth
Sure right now they be happy acting the same
But 10 ears from now I want to ask What Changed?
Now when I write a piece, I put all my emotions into it. I only write when I have the inspiration to, I don't force it and I don't make a piece half ass. If I'm not putting 100% into it, then I can't call it a piece.
Here is the piece I performed today that I wrote for the occasion
This piece is about the goals I have in life and how trying to find a job I like sucks. Hope you like it
What Changed?
Gee, I can't wait to graduate and get a job!
Is what I said back in the day
Blinded by my ignorant college ways
Big dreams about cash I never saw the truth
Cause it's a lot of BS that I've been through
Now its true you give up lectures and tests
But you ive up funn stuff without time to rest
Let me profess the truth of after the diploma
Give you some insight of this real world coma
You give up going to classroom 925
To get a nine to five
Did I mention the possibility of overtime?
Your 3 months vacation shrink down to 10 days
Well... make it 15 if you include holidays
Instead of worrying about class the next day
Your concerned about stocks in your 401K
Projects, midterms and finals
becomes meetings, reports and reviews
Now is it a job your really want to pursue?
If I knew it was going to be elike this I would've got seven degrees
Broaden my mind instead of using Office XP
Plant some seeds and build my foundation
Have a idea and embark on its creation
Because when you die, how are you going to be remembered
Are you going to be known for being in a cubicle forever?
Fuck that, that's not going to be me
Because theirs a whiole of goals I want to achieve
Now some of this stuff might be hard to believe
But I will finish them before my hair recedes
I want to climb Mt. Fuji and see the Japanese sunrise
Watch the cherry blossoms bloom and fall with my own eyes
Learn how to play the guitar besides the song more than words
Run with the bulls and learn anchient proverbs
Learn the piano and participate in a symphony
Be arranged next to the trumbone and timpani
I want to visit the Filipino motherland
Be in a movie or commercial holding a fanta can
I picture myself acting like a unsung hero
Being in time square reenacting the My Boo Video
Dance to the center while singing the song
Have someone like Alicia Keys moving along
Whatever you may think just set yourself some goals
Something you want to do with your mind body and soul
Mass props to the people who enjoy their work.
That's like 10% of people on this earth
Sure right now they be happy acting the same
But 10 ears from now I want to ask What Changed?
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Holding my breath
Its been awhile since I actually posted something on here. Well 5 or 6 days but still. I've been trying to get my head in the game. But here are some mini posts
Holding my breath
This past week I had a interview for a position in Los Angeles. I'm staying positive and crossing my fingers hoping I get this job. If I do get this position, that will be ticket to live in LA. So I've been preparing for this interview all week. I'm not going to have any doubts in my mind. I'm going to get this job.
Love at first sight
Have you ever had a time where you saw someone, and you just pictured your entire future with them. Now I know you had times where you see someone and you just want to get them in the sack. But seriously, have you seen someone out of nowhere and just pictured yourself with them for the rest of your life. Picturing having kids with them, being married to them, starting a life with them. Now the real question is, if you do see someone as someone you'll be with, did you actually do something to make that happen. Or did you just chill and let her pass by, not saying a word, not making a motion. For some reason I was at church today and I saw a pretty lady by herself and I just thought about that feeling. Which reminds me of this picture.
Timbaland f/ One Republic- Apologize
I heard this song a couple days ago and this song just reminded me of this girl I know back in college. I met this girl when I was a freshman. From the moment we met, we really clicked. Talked to each other every night, talk about our lives and what not. It felt like we had a reall connection. Then one day, she stops picking up her calls and I'm wondering what the hell happened. One day I decided to call her off another person's cell phone to see if she was ignoring my calls. I found out she was, when I asked for a explanation, she didn't, she just said that she had to go. After that conversation, I never spoke to her again. Later down the line my homie was telling me how she wanted to call and talk to me and apologize, but she didn't. Then a couple years she sent me a note online saying how she was sorry and how she felt bad. She actually sent another apology note a few months later. Being the man that I am now, I would've forgave her because I know how wrong burning bridges is. But back then, I felt like she did me wrong. So I never responded to any of her messages. This song reminds me of that time.
Spoken Word
I know I haven't posted that many pieces on this blog. But there's a spoken word night at Hot Java Cafe in san diego that I might perform at. Holla if you want details.
Holding my breath
This past week I had a interview for a position in Los Angeles. I'm staying positive and crossing my fingers hoping I get this job. If I do get this position, that will be ticket to live in LA. So I've been preparing for this interview all week. I'm not going to have any doubts in my mind. I'm going to get this job.
Love at first sight
Have you ever had a time where you saw someone, and you just pictured your entire future with them. Now I know you had times where you see someone and you just want to get them in the sack. But seriously, have you seen someone out of nowhere and just pictured yourself with them for the rest of your life. Picturing having kids with them, being married to them, starting a life with them. Now the real question is, if you do see someone as someone you'll be with, did you actually do something to make that happen. Or did you just chill and let her pass by, not saying a word, not making a motion. For some reason I was at church today and I saw a pretty lady by herself and I just thought about that feeling. Which reminds me of this picture.
Timbaland f/ One Republic- Apologize
I heard this song a couple days ago and this song just reminded me of this girl I know back in college. I met this girl when I was a freshman. From the moment we met, we really clicked. Talked to each other every night, talk about our lives and what not. It felt like we had a reall connection. Then one day, she stops picking up her calls and I'm wondering what the hell happened. One day I decided to call her off another person's cell phone to see if she was ignoring my calls. I found out she was, when I asked for a explanation, she didn't, she just said that she had to go. After that conversation, I never spoke to her again. Later down the line my homie was telling me how she wanted to call and talk to me and apologize, but she didn't. Then a couple years she sent me a note online saying how she was sorry and how she felt bad. She actually sent another apology note a few months later. Being the man that I am now, I would've forgave her because I know how wrong burning bridges is. But back then, I felt like she did me wrong. So I never responded to any of her messages. This song reminds me of that time.
Spoken Word
I know I haven't posted that many pieces on this blog. But there's a spoken word night at Hot Java Cafe in san diego that I might perform at. Holla if you want details.
Written Piece: Voicemail
This piece can be found of my old xanga page. But I decided to repost this. I'm planning on posting a lot more of my pieces in the near future. Hope you enjoy.
I wrote this piece back in the day thinking about missed opportunities and dwelling on it too much. Pretty much if you think about it too much, you lose it. Don't think about these situations too hard. just do it.
Please keep in mind that these are spoken word pieces. So if you want to feel the true essance of the piece, you would have to see it performed.
Voicemail
You have 3 New Messages
This is it man, the opportunity of a lifetime.
Are you just gonna sit here and let your dream girl pass by?
The message says her flight leaves at nine.
She'll be waiting at Gate G if you wanna come and say hi.
Now I know you've been peepin her since the day you met.
and if you don't tell her now, you will have nothing but regrets.
So stop sitting on that couch trying to think.
Because she will disappear the moment you blink.
You have 2 new messages
Now I know your actin like usher cause you got it bad.
But your blind cause you can't see the opportunity you have.
So she's wondering if you got this next message so she'll make it louder.
Saying she leaves for New York in a couple hours.
Now here's the catch, she wants to tell you something.
And i say you get up and stop doing nothing.
But wait, Hold up, your body hesitates.
Are you gonna be the man to let her forever wait.
This girl is beyond the portrait of a goddess.
Just chillen with her is special and that's being modest.
now picture the moment you tell her how you feel.
All your doing is just keeping it real.
If she deny's you, it wasn't meant to be.
Its better to know that then what could it be.
Ok your driving to the airport, and not a moment too soon.
Because it would of been stupid to stay in your room.
Now step on the gas and meet your destiny.
Find out if it will ever be.
You have 1 new message
Oh Man, Your not going to believe this.
But this final message will leave you on your fingertips.
She's saying she likes you and all she wants to see you.
Knowing that if you say yes that she will be true.
Now time is against you and the clock is ticking.
You have 3 hours left before she starts leaving.
All she asks is to see her face.
And you can arrive giving her a warm embrace.
Look straight in her eye and sense your heart stop.
And pull a K-Ci and JoJo and catch her teardrop.
Go ahead man, mix a Jerry Mcquire, Can't Hardly Wait, and She's All that mixed into one.
Run through that airport cause your Mission needs to be done.
And the moment she tries and board that plane you look in her straight in her eye.
You say _______________ I love you, Good Bye.
You have 0 new messages.
I wrote this piece back in the day thinking about missed opportunities and dwelling on it too much. Pretty much if you think about it too much, you lose it. Don't think about these situations too hard. just do it.
Please keep in mind that these are spoken word pieces. So if you want to feel the true essance of the piece, you would have to see it performed.
Voicemail
You have 3 New Messages
This is it man, the opportunity of a lifetime.
Are you just gonna sit here and let your dream girl pass by?
The message says her flight leaves at nine.
She'll be waiting at Gate G if you wanna come and say hi.
Now I know you've been peepin her since the day you met.
and if you don't tell her now, you will have nothing but regrets.
So stop sitting on that couch trying to think.
Because she will disappear the moment you blink.
You have 2 new messages
Now I know your actin like usher cause you got it bad.
But your blind cause you can't see the opportunity you have.
So she's wondering if you got this next message so she'll make it louder.
Saying she leaves for New York in a couple hours.
Now here's the catch, she wants to tell you something.
And i say you get up and stop doing nothing.
But wait, Hold up, your body hesitates.
Are you gonna be the man to let her forever wait.
This girl is beyond the portrait of a goddess.
Just chillen with her is special and that's being modest.
now picture the moment you tell her how you feel.
All your doing is just keeping it real.
If she deny's you, it wasn't meant to be.
Its better to know that then what could it be.
Ok your driving to the airport, and not a moment too soon.
Because it would of been stupid to stay in your room.
Now step on the gas and meet your destiny.
Find out if it will ever be.
You have 1 new message
Oh Man, Your not going to believe this.
But this final message will leave you on your fingertips.
She's saying she likes you and all she wants to see you.
Knowing that if you say yes that she will be true.
Now time is against you and the clock is ticking.
You have 3 hours left before she starts leaving.
All she asks is to see her face.
And you can arrive giving her a warm embrace.
Look straight in her eye and sense your heart stop.
And pull a K-Ci and JoJo and catch her teardrop.
Go ahead man, mix a Jerry Mcquire, Can't Hardly Wait, and She's All that mixed into one.
Run through that airport cause your Mission needs to be done.
And the moment she tries and board that plane you look in her straight in her eye.
You say _______________ I love you, Good Bye.
You have 0 new messages.
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